Wednesday, May 22, 2013

Discovery of the world of Psyops and Perception Management : DIA Psyops at it's best from 1987-1996 - via a human subject

Book Prop. - working a book on a true perspective:
The  Unveiling of Anathema, 
first Chapter: will be surviving the game of the Mind Hackers - lessons on possibly how to deal with those working to hack your perceptual resolutions.  
Second Chapter - Black Unicorns - How to potentially have recognition of the hacker's goals e.g., to veil Black Unicorns (funded failures) and tends towards criminal behaviors.   

Well, update 2017 - The psyops has begun again requiring more competition in new Space Assets see:

All with the same characters from my experiences from below.  
Starts with Social Engineering via NASA, SRI, and possibly supervised by Pentagon Funds after CIA discarded it?
Clinton Admin with John Podesta, and today.. again, today 2009-2016 Podesta masterminding in the background.

Notes from a whistleblower in NASA (selection process and targeted for being used for distraction of espionage or tradecraft)?  See:  FOIA "NASA's Secret Relationships with U.S. Defense and Intelligence Agencies" section on NASA's Participation in Cover Stories.

Late 1987 when I first entered a federal center to work in a Research Institute for Advanced Computing Sciences, I didn't realize that I also stirred interest in being selected to be a human subject as well? I was interviewed by a director to work as an administrative assistant initially, but I surmise that it was also discovered that I also fit some profile for human subject research? This particular director did dialog with Esalen and SRI folk periodically. This may be why there was great interest in hiring me for the administrative work; and intentionally positioned for a research area surrounding 'engima' and enhanced human performance (without my knowing)? Today I can only speculate if my selection was due to the discussion during the interview, where there was great interest in my training as a master hypnotist? I was asked about the reasoning for my going into the art; which I admitted was due to my reconciliation of my own cognitive anomalies experienced. As soon as I started my position in this institute that contracted and resided in the federal center, a civil servant human factors person working collaboratively with SRI (Human Factors) came to introduce himself to me, and led me into a shadowy world looking into the areas of anomalous cognition and phenomena. This particular civil servant then retired from civil service and was hired directly into the institute in which I worked, to work on human factors work (which I didn't understand at the time).

After the initial introduction from this researcher, I was taken to meet with an SRI PI (a lunch meeting) where I was introduced to a subject that was very far from what I was trying to understand in anomalous phenomena; I was introduced to the subject of "Close Encounters of the 4th Kind"?

I was interviewed and asked what I thought about the Close Encounters of 4th Kind (CE4) and UFO phenomena after they explained it? I had never really thought about UFOs and aliens abducting people, that wasn't my interest area in anomalous phenomena. I was curious and interested in their explanation, stories, etc. But, I was primarily interested more into my type of experiences from my personal past. I had experiences of what I thought were precognitive, possibly telepathic or sensitive knowing, and also interested in some ghostly dreams I had; and I'll emphasize that I do know the difference between dreams and reality. I was shocked and awed that there was research into this area surrounding the federal center (not official in the center, but still appearance through officials in the federal center)? As a social engineering tactic, entrancing my curiosity and interest area, these researchers used my experience in hypnosis for bringing me in to their special research subject and this SRI meeting participation? They talked about some new approaches they planned to use for extracting memories from people who believe they have had UFO or these Close Encounter experiences. I was then asked to join a group of professional scientists that met regularly at a house at Stanford University. The purpose was to learn this new hypnosis technique called "The Stage 3 technique". Little did I know that I was being profiled and social engineered to become a subject.

I did attend the meetings and was initially introduced to these SRI scientists, I vaguely remember that there were about 6-8 scientists there ranging from physics to bioengineering. I remember sitting down in a large living room environment and being brought a cup of tea. But, the rest of these meetings that I attended are a blur. I know I attended them, but I don't remember anything - content or even learning the "Stage 3 technique". I can only assume that I was the subject, and was told to 'forget'?

Shortly after these meetings, I was told that I was of interest and that I possessed interesting ability to 'know things'? This is where I was led into the World of CE4 and psychic spying. The rest of the details are being worked in my book, another sequel possibly to "The Men Who Stare At Goats". An inside perspective, from a subject, social engineered and brought in on the workings of psychological applications and anomalous phenomena.

Discovery of the world of Psyops and Perception Management 
Was this to cover-up espionage and political positioning (Clinton and Podesta World of intrigue with spies, lies and UFOs - Psyops).?

The big clue to me was learning:
1) a urgent phone call from a mysterious investigator Martin Cannon, whom Mike Coyle of Vericom Files (which Hollywood modeled for their X-Files series) forwarded my information to.   Mike Coyle heard of me from my attempt to break free from the SRI team of researchers and feds involved.  I had performed out reach to Professor Sheflin (University of Santa Clara) professional on use of hypnosis for mind control and Margaret Singer in Berkeley, also an expert on cults and mind manipulation for advisement and assistance.  Mike Coyle learned of this and had Cannon call me.   Martin found out what the SRI scientist were working on around my sphere (the SRI stuff), he tied to come in and warn me (he said), but he was threatened and immediately shut down. He came to Berkeley to give a talk and I showed up so we could meet. Three spooks surrounded me in the talk audience and after the talk they held me away from Martin (literaly grabbed and held me), and Martin looking puzzled was blocked and ushered out the back door away from me and I later heard he was completely shut down, his theory everything.  He actually sent out a letter to all apologizing for his theory?   So, was it his attempt to help me that drew a final straw? 

2) that the interview and visit to the SRI group, were part of the old Project Blue book tribe, along with some members from project Scanate Group funded by CIA (the group that turned into Project Stargate - funded by the DIA), so when I read about that NICAP (a CIA run UFO group) had a change in hands 1970 from USMC Major Donald Keyhole to Col. Joseph J. Bryan, who was a head of CIA's Psychological Warfare Division drives the whole basis of my book together. So, at the base of this whole theme - From NICAP, CUFOS, FUFOR, etc. was R&D for Psychological Warfare (the art of deception surrounding high tech and techniques such as activities going on at Area 51 (technology that surpassed the U2 capabilities

John Podesta gets caught with his fingers in the human experimentation game -Three people died in illegal human experiments carried out by John Podesta backer's firm: 

Did it also involve the UFO human experimentation stuff he got into?  E.g., John Podesta: Pulling Back the Curtain on UFOs
Also find latest articles on Podesta at: Author states "


In San Diego’s case, the torrent of Podesta emails posted by WikiLeaks has furnished an unprecedented glimpse into the city’s elite world of pervasive power and influence, occupied by super-rich campaign donors along with the peculiar Encinitas rock star Tom DeLonge.

Tom DeLonge

The former Blink-182 frontman, who left the Poway-bred group (again) after it splintered last year to pursue a literary career, has been in regular touch with Podesta regarding the pair’s mutual interest in UFOs and other forms of extraterrestrial life, the leaked emails show. 

In an interview with Rolling Stone this past April, DeLonge spilled the beans on his lifelong obsession with flying saucers. “They went across the country and landed in certain cities, and mayors and senators met with the pilots,” he said, describing an 1897 blimp invasion of the west.

“It was national news. And then they completely disappeared. No one knows who they were.”

Recounts Rolling Stone, “The guitarist has made several aircraft-spotting pilgrimages himself, driving his Airstream trailer to Nevada test sites like Area 51 and Tonopah, bringing spotting scopes, satellite phones, and night-vision goggles (‘They’re registered with the State Department — I can’t leave the country with them’).”

So, how did DeLonge procure his top-secret access and gear?  He isn’t saying, and neither Podesta nor the Clinton campaign will confirm or deny the provenance of the leaked emails.

DeLonge told Rolling Stone that background for Sekret Machines Book 1: Chasing Shadows, a novel he wrote with Andrew James Hartley, a British-born fantasy writer, was based on information from “sources within the aerospace industry and the Department of Defense and NASA.”

He continued, “That sentence, specifically, was approved for me to say,” and added, “I have 10 people that I’m working with that are at the highest levels of the Department of Defense and NASA and the military.”

Following the WikiLeaks dumps of the Podesta files in June, DeLonge briefly took to Instagram October 21 to imply that all the publicity had interfered with his mission. “I am still here. WikiLeaks really messed some important stuff up.”

He added, “What seems like ridiculous subject matter to most, is of massive importance to admirable National Security Leadership. It’s easy to poke fun about the topic from an armchair, but unless you’re invited to the meetings I have been a part of, then... no more laughing. Big things are coming. Project is still on, believe it or not, things just got bigger.” 
To the Stars, Tom DeLonge's outer-space headquarters

To house his out-of-this-world mania, DeLonge created To the Stars, a retail-cum-lobbying headquarters on South Coast Highway in Encinitas to sell his outer-space theories, along with skateboards, mugs, hats, T-shirts, used amps, and historic guitars.

“Brand new!!! Rare as hell…the actual one made for me during Enema [of the State, Blink’s third album, released in 1999],” says the To the Stars website of a Fender Custom Shop Strat offered for $10,000. “Comes with Certificate of Authenticity signed by Tom DeLonge.”

How DeLonge originally linked up with Podesta is not clear, though the longtime Clinton and Obama aide is reportedly a fan of The X-Files and eager to ease release of top-secret UFO files if he returns to the White House in a putative new Clinton administration.

Another motive for Podesta’s cooperation with DeLonge, some skeptics suggest, is a longtime U.S. policy of disinformation that encourages public speculation about the existence of UFOs to obscure the real details of super weapons being developed in the deserts of the Southwest by the likes of Lockheed and other big military contractors.

The emails from WikiLeaks provide a one-sided version of DeLonge’s communications with the onetime DC lobbyist, but indicate that Podesta had provided his email and maintained contact with DeLonge following an interview for DeLonge’s video documentary project based around Sekret Machines Book 1.

In an October 16, 2015, email, Delonge wrote Podesta about a deal with director Steven Spielberg: “Hi John — Tom DeLonge here, The one who interviewed you for that special documentary not to [sic] long ago. Things are moving with the project. 

“The Novels, Films and Non Fiction works are blooming and finishing. Just had a preliminary meeting with Spielberg’s Chief Operating Officer at DreamWorks.

“More meetings are now on the books — I would like to bring two very ‘important’ people out to meet you in DC. I think you will find them very interesting, as they were principal leadership relating to our sensitive topic.

“Both were in charge of most fragile divisions, as it relates to Classified Science and DOD topics. Other words, these are A-Level officials. Worth our time, and as well the investment to bring all the way out to you. I just need 2 hours from you. Just looking to have a casual, and private conversation in person.”

That November 16, DeLonge relayed a message to Podesta through Hillary Clinton campaign aide Milia Fisher regarding a video he had recently posted online.

“I created this teaser as a way to open conversations and excite Spielberg’s people. It worked. I just left my meeting at DreamWorks, and they are very, very interested.

“On another note, I have somebody important that is willing to fly out and meet with Mr. Podesta. A member of my Committee. I am awaiting a time in January that might work for Mr. Podesta.

“My goal is for Spielberg to be there, too. And if not him, somebody of his stature. Please show Mr. Podesta this private teaser. Let him know that I am spending all afternoon interviewing a scientist that worked on a spacecraft at Area 51 tomorrow.”

On January 26, DeLonge emailed Podesta, “I am honored to be able to work on this with important Men like yourself. Get some sleep out there on that campaign trail, by the way — If I can help I am happy to do it. Hillary’s office called me twice in the past to help her run for the Senate. I met her while I was campaigning for John Kerry. Always loved her. Always wanted a female leader.”

Podesta forwarded DeLonge’s message to Adrienne K. Elrod, director of Strategic Communications & Surrogates for the Clinton campaign, saying of DeLonge, “Don’t think the band is still together, but I think he would do stuff.”

Per a January 24, 2016, email from the WikiLeaks dump, Podesta had arranged an online video conference with DeLonge and four others for January 25. Participants were to include Michael Carey. Though not identified as such in the email, Michael J. Carey is a retired Air Force major general whose endorsement is featured on the book’s Amazon page.

“Sekret Machines scratches at the surface of ‘who do’ we trust with our classified technology — certainly our adversaries are aware of our undertakings, as they are doing the same, but what of our citizens, our politicians, even our own military.”

Continues Carey, “Tom DeLonge and A.J. Hartley create a convincing narrative describing the ‘cat and mouse’ game that is timeless between strategic adversaries. It has existed under the sea, on the surface of the earth and in its skies, why wouldn’t we believe it occurs in space. Our military leaders have been saying space is a contested environment for years now, perhaps we should believe them!”

Another intriguing component of the invitee list was the email address of Rob Weiss, executive vice president and general manager of Lockheed Martin’s Advanced Development Programs, famously known as the Skunkworks, the top-secret developer of the U-2 spy plane and a host of stealth technology used by the nation’s military.

In an email on February 22, 2016, Delonge wrote Podesta, “Mr. Weiss from Lockheed SkunkWorks just emailed me asking if there were any updates. I am not expecting much, but if there is anything I can tell him and the General, however small, I would like to respectfully pass it along.”

Another email address of those invited to the online meeting is widely reported to have belonged to retired Air Force major general William Neil McCasland, associated with some of the U.S. government’s most surreptitious high-tech operations, including the Air Force Research Laboratory at Kirtland Air Force Base, outside of Albuquerque, New Mexico, where many UFO sightings have been reported over the decades, most famously the 1947 Roswell incident.

“He mentioned he’s a ‘skeptic’, he’s not,” Delonge wrote Podesta regarding McCasland in a January 25 email.

“He just has to say that out loud, but he is very, very aware — as he was in charge of all of the stuff. When Roswell crashed, they shipped it to the laboratory at Wright Patterson Air Force Base. General McCasland was in charge of that exact laboratory up to a couple years ago.  
As the release date of his novel approached, DeLonge sought Podesta’s assistance planting stories in the media, per a February 16 email from the WikiLeaks collection.

“This first piece is going to be with Rolling Stone, they’re flying a journalist out to sit with me for two days and do an in-depth printed feature on this,” wrote DeLonge.

“We like Rolling Stone, right?”

He added, “We are planning on doing the New York Times, the Wall Street Journal, or the Washington Post,” and asked Podesta for help.

“My question is this: Do you know anybody at those institutions that you can put in a good word to consider the story? I think we can do fine on our own, but knowing a good journalist, somebody that would get the hint if you put out an email, we can set up the entire project credibly. I remember Leslie Keane, but I can’t remember who she writes for... Or somebody else more elevated than her, that they can get this in the right publication.”

In a February 23 update, DeLonge boasted that his inside connections with the government were paying off in Hollywood.

“I met with ScottFree (Ridley Scott’s company) last week — they did The Martian film that has won incredible acclaim over this past year. They were blown away by what I am doing, they need a couple weeks to dig through the Novel. Like everybody else I meet with, their faces drop halfway through the meeting and can’t believe that I am spearheading a project that has support from the shadows. They look comatosed... Ha. But they it’s so [sic] incredibly excited that this topic may start to come out.”

In an apparent reference to McCasland, Delonge said, “The General (from Wright Patt R&D) and I talk every other day. He and I talked on the phone the other night and he is excited, he really thinks that the DOD is going to embrace my project because I am out to show all the positive things great people have done on this topic. And I am eager to take direction from leadership to do a good and needed public service.”"

See more of my perspective below.  Where it is going with Singularity University transhuman, mind reading, and more technology drive.   Singularity Univ. is sponsored and run by Google and Peter Thiel.   We know what their goals are.   Surveillance into every aspect of your life, sell you what you should be buying and behaving.   It's all free too...

My experiential knowledge is based on a naive young woman's journey into an Aerospace Agency and was put through Psychological Warfare R&D and Industrial Complex hall of mirrors using the Aerospace base - Hence "Unveiling of Anathema" an adequate description for the experience she encounters. I'm glad I waited this long to begin it.

I'll theme my book as such: Since other countries and transnational corporations were working on many secretive means to spy on US developments (air, land, sea, and social infiltration) she happened to enter employment were there were projects that needed ways to cover groups specializing in cultural anthropology, human factors and cognitive sciences to work various control, distraction and illusionist capabilities in order to work counterintelligence R&D (e.g., along with creation of cover organizations within UFO groups, psychic groups, religious groups, transhuman groups, etc. for honey potting new innovations and selection of human research subjects). A distraction from all their trips back and forth to Russia during the ending of the Cold War to the war field in Afghanistan.

Pysops tactics to veil new innovation developments of technology and enhanced human performance for the war field (spacecraft, aircraft, weapons, armory and super soldiers). Said Aerospace Agency, SRI, Berkeley, etc. had a sub culture of research areas that did indeed and still do provide a good distraction base for development of many of these psyops capabilities in the early TRL stage due to the applicability to science and use of imagination relating to inner and outer space new innovations.

So this young woman's curiosity of anomalies and more got her into an interesting quantum entanglement ;-) with those with the mindset of the super natural warrior kind.
Sigh, with all the distraction tactics (UFOs, Alien Abductions, Remote Viewing and today's new theme transhumans and the Kurzweilian Cult of Singularity) this woman still today never got resolution on the anomalies she was interested in from her own personal experiences outside the mindset of those who entangled her into the reality stage and theatrics of psyops. She ends the book still left sorting it all out herself, the mind of the beholder. This book will be a true story turned into Speculative Fiction.

This post is just a tickler to a true story... A story of a human subject in the World of cloaks and daggers discovering the arts of Perception Management and advanced social engineering.

Monday, January 25, 2010

Poltergist like activity

In 1983 during my second marriage:

Early in our marriage, my husband and I had what seemed like some poltergist like activity. It started with one night my husband and I hearing some noise in the kitchen, a clanging noise. I got up to see what was going on, and noticed that all my dishes from the kitchen cabinet were all neatly stacked on the floor? I called my husband in to see. We both puzzled, put the dishes away, and then climbed back into bed. An hour later, we again were awaken, but this time the noise was in the other side of the house (the back spare room). So my husband got up to check that time, and he went into the back bedroom and noticed that the iron and ironing board was pulled out and the iron was on, and dangling on the side of the board. I hadn't used the iron in quite a while (I'm not one for ironing). My husband unplugged the iron, folded up the board and put it back. He came back in the bedroom puzzled and asked if I left the iron on with the board out? I told him "of course not, when has he seen me ironing?" Now we were a little spooked, not knowing what to think, did someone slip into the house and is playing tricks on us. The kids are too small, and are sound a sleep (both of them were between 3-4 years old). Certainly not able get to the dishes and neatly stack them with out our knowing it. We finally fell back to sleep after a bit, but as soon as we were in a good sleep; we were startled awake “with the packman game going off in our bed”, of all things.. The pacman game was in bed between us, and going off, making that packman gobbling sound. I know for a fact that we did not have that thing in our room (something was playing with us)? My husband was totally shaken, we did not sleep the rest of that night.

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Precognition or Systemic Cog event?

During 1977, I also had a precognitive experience with senses vision& physical feeling. My husband BXXX and I were living in a small condo (our first home) at the time, and he was away at work. I had put my small daughter down for a nap; and went into the living room to read a cook book on the couch. As soon as I sat on the couch, I had a very vivid image and sensed physical feelings; it was as if I stepped into another place, time, and scene? In the scene I watched felt and sensed my brother, his motorcycle crashing into a car, and a sense of flying and dizzyness. I was experiencing an urgent rush of stress, and impact; so I called my Mom immediately and asked her if my brother was okay. I explained to her that I had an experience (vision? Sensing a scene?), and it was my brother in a car crash with the motorcycle. My Mom replied that she hadn’t heard anything, and that she believed everything was okay? Maybe I just was dozing off and dreaming? So, I then just let it all go. An hour or so later, my Mom called back and informed me that my brother indeed did get into an accident with his motorcycle in Modesto. She said he was okay and only bruised his butt, ego, and his bike was totaled (totally run over by the car). Apparently my brother hit a car head on and he few right over the car and landed on his butt.

I was 60 miles away from my brother, how did I pick up the accident?

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Another curious experience

Around 12, I had a bewildering experience that really to this day left an impression on my mom. My Grandmother, mother, brother and I used to go to Santa Cruz every other weekend to stay out at the beach in Capitola in a Camper. It was my Grandmother's camper, she loved the beach. We always parked close to the pier, it was such a great adventure for my brother and I. One weekend, I immediately went out to the water and walked the beach upon arrival. After being there for the first day, I finally started feeling bored (heck I was twelve and needed something new than just hanging out on the beach with my brother). I found myself walking around the beach in a circle, I sank into a strange state (I guess a trance state?). I caught the attention of a man sitting out on the beach that was filling out papers and doing some reading. He watched me just walk in a big circle repetitively. So, he called me over to him and asked me my name. He was around 36 years old, I guess? I was not very educated on not talking with strangers. He asked me why I was walking around in a circle, where I came from, etc. At this point I realized that it was just he and I on the beach. My family was in the camper, and no one else was around. He asked if I minded if he walked the beach with me? I didn’t see any problem with it, so we walked together. This man and I had some interesting discussion started, wherein he started asking me questions that were over my head, yet I found myself answering him on how to deal with certain situations in his life, how to deal with it? I was trance like, I think, because it didn't feel like it was me talking with this man? I was twelve years old and I was telling him that life was like a puzzle, that there are hundreds to thousands of pieces to it, and if one piece didn’t quite fit into the present moment, he was not to hold on to it? Because in doing so he could overload himself eventually with all the pieces (he'd be carrying too heavy of a load). I was giving him some heavy philosophy, that to this day I wonder where I learned it?? The next morning, this gentleman came back to the beach looking for me, he talked with my mom and told her that I had some special gift. He bought me a puppy and wanted me to keep it as a gift from him. My mother, of course, became very suspicious of the man and wouldn’t let me accept the puppy. She did allow him to talk with me within her sight and he again asked me questions about things he should consider?? I don’t remember the gist of the conversation; I just remember that it felt like something was talking through me? I was just sort of outside myself watching and listening? When we returned home from the beach, the man called my mom. He was crying and told her, that I had turned him around. That he was contemplating suicide, his life was very bad. He had lost a child and had some other serious problems. He said that I had talked him out of leaving life and learned how to take the challenges as stepping stones to heal and help others in similar situations? I apparently convinced him that he was strong and that he would find the proper pieces of life, if he would allow them to come to view, instead of his forcing pieces that he thought were expected. He wanted her to make sure that I knew of my special gift? I didn’t really understand back then what he was talking about.

Anomalous Cognition - Systemic Cognition

I noted that there is a lot of interesting dialog on these subjects of anomalies in our lives, but most fall on either a believer stream of psychic dimensions or a disbeliever stream (where skeptics - even go as far to disprove everything that they cannot find meeting their physical evidence or mathematical theories ;-).

I'm sure that everyone has had an anomaly or two in their life? So, being someone who has had anomalies dance before me in the past and recent events; I'll like to poll for concepts and ideas of what they were.

Each blog will describe an experience, wherein I have been left perplexed and still no real answers to. Doctor's try to categorize the experience in some brain function of (too many neurons firing off, or trauma visions, or many other explanations; research scientists from NASA and SRI go off into physics (quantum and zero point); human factors again works on enhanced imagination and performance issues, and it goes and it goes; but no real answers that quite nail the phenomena.

I'll start this blog with one very striking anomaly:

At five years old, I used to spend my weekend mornings sitting out on my slide stationed out on the South end of our ranch. I used it as my watch tower and I used to think I was special, because my brother wasn’t allowed on it (he was too small). One particular morning during apricot season, Sunday; when everyone was at church, I noticed a dune buggy climbing up the hill across from me. I watched it climb all the way up and over the hill. I then waited to see what other things I could see, when suddenly the dune buggy showed back up flying back over the hill and down with a crash. I saw two figures fly out of the dune buggy (to me at the time being only five years old, looked like a cartoon, it was surreal.) I had no realization that what I saw was real serious. I just stood there, transfixed waiting, staring at the crashed buggy in the silence afterward. After about 10 minutes, I then started to climb back down the slide to go back into the house, when I noticed my baby-sitter Bobby Santos standing next to the slide. He yelled at me “Go in and tell your mom, that a terrible accident just happened, have her get help! Now!” I immediately got running into the house and told my mom that Bobby yelled at me to get some help. She looked out the window and said “Helen, I don’t see Bobby, if there was an accident then I am sure someone over there saw it and they will take care of it.” I went back out to the slide and saw Bobby still standing there. He yelled at me again “Damnit, run go tell Manuel! Hurry, run. Run! Damnit! Run! Tell Manuel. “ I was then startled and scared at Bobby’s yelling at me, but I did as told and ran as hard and as fast as I could over towards Manuel’s house across the hill. I found Manuel and his brother out in the apricot shed preparing for the cutting, and once I told them of Bobby's need for help; they didn't question me, they immediately jumped into their jeep and went up the hill towards the accident. After the police moved from the accident scene and were done questioning Manuel and his brother, a policeman had me go up to the accident site with him, and asked me questions. I was in a bit of shock, I couldn't talk (I was looking for Bobby). I saw a pool of blood on the ground and got very upset. My mom came, concerned and took me home, upset that the police took me near the site. Later that night, I was told that Bobby had died in that accident (on impact), and that I wouldn’t see him anymore. I told my mother, “but I saw Bobby today, he was yelling at me”. She told me that Bobby died instantly in the dune buggy, and that I had saved Larry’s life by getting over to Manuel in plenty of time for them to tend to him. Larry could have bled to death had no one got there timely enough. Two weeks later Larry came over and thanked me for saving him. But, today, I know it wasn’t me, it was Bobby who saved him. Had it not been Bobby that yelled at me and made sure I understood to get over there, I think I would have just gone back in the house. I didn’t understand back then what really happened? It was due to the apparition of Bobby that Larry is still alive with a wonderful family? I was faced with the determination of life and death, and forced with understanding the finality of death. I really to this day, don’t know if it was really Bobby there, or if I, being an imaginative child constructed this scenario in determining that something was wrong and needed immediate help? The fact is I acted, which saved Larry’s life. Thought Bobby was alive and with me at the time?

What do you think?